30 December 2010

totally im crazy .

sumpah aku cakap , ary nie aku jadi giler ckit . cam naa mara ader , cam naa gelak pon ader . tapi disebab an kesilapan dari diri sendiri an , beter , time jerk laa . adessss ! 
ary nie der photoshoot at JB kol 10a.m , aku pon bangon arh awal . kol 5a.m aku daa bgong . huhu . aku mandi2 then  lam kol 6a.m aku pon grak g JB . sampai JB lam kol 9 lebeyh . da sampai aku pon kuar an brang2 n standby tup2 , aku jadi  sengal ckit uh . coz brang2 tok photoshoot like camera n lense aku nyer ttinggal . yang aku bwak juz my lappy jerk . hahahah ! kowang pikir laa if daa tetinggal , taa kan aku naa alek selangor plak , smate mate naa amek menatang tuu . perhh ! taa sanggop dowh . huhuhu . buleyh jadi giler aku la camera aku tuu tate :(  . after that , aku pon dok menung arh coz menatang kesayangan aku tuu taderh . ermmm . aper laa nasib aku nie . sume nyer ttinggal . ermmm . aku pon dok jerk laa at kdai mkan nan kwan2 aku sampi giler aku diwat nyer . nga mkan punyer mkan , aku dpat kol dari kaka spupu aku , dyer kate naa twon JB kol  9a.m . huh ! aku pon perh agyh , melompat sakan laa . heeee :P . daa dyer naa twon JB , aku pon pesan at dyer n soh dyer bwak an aku nyer camera 1set . huhuhu . memang giler uh . tggu punyer tggu kaka sepupu aku sampai , tibe nyer dyer ditempat dimane aku berada , aku pon taa naa buang mase , twoz wat photoshoot . huhuh . keje punye keje , tgok2 jam daa kol 7p.m . taa pasan plak . hekhek . tuu laa , len kali lalai lagi yer kecik . huhuhu . selalu kol 3p.m or 4p.m daa abez  tp ary nie ? amek ko ! taa pasal2 abez lambat . ermmm . tanpe buang mase , aku pon perh agyh , siap2 kemas brang tgok jam daa kol 8 lebeyh , then twoz gerak alek selangor . ermmm .penat aku . huhuh .

29 December 2010

epy dayz !

tadi epy ckit kowt . hahah ! bnyak laa ko nyer epy ckit kecik oi ! sepak ko kunk . hahah ! epy laa epy . epy coz tadi spend time nan awek aku . bawu dapat kuar , huhuhu . pusing pusing , jalan jalan , huh ! penat uh .actly aku bawu alek dari melake coz ader keje ckit at canew  . alek alek , aku twoz g jupe si mucuxku tersayang tapi ader citer yang taa bez plak . adessss ! sampai jerk at ea , aku ajak dyer g mkan . lapaa laa shial ! grrrr~! huhuhu . tuu pon g mkan bkan aku yang bayar , dyer yang tolong bayar an . heheh . ( jgan sebok ! ) :p
hahah ! daa laa bdayz dyer , sepatot nyer aku laa yang tapau dyer tp nie taa . terbalek lak , dyer yang tapau aku . daa laa prezen pon aku taa bg at ea .hhuhu . bby ! suwy tate prezen tok kamoo , kamoo tau kenapew kan ? heheh . ( shhhh ! jgn bg tau owang len . diam2 jerk k sygs . ) heee :P
suwy sgat2 bie ssh an  bby td n taa pat bg bby prezen . per yang penting , bie epy giler ckunk coz apat kuar nan bby . agyh pon daa lame taa jupew an , cian ea windu bie yer . hekhek :D
anyway , tenx coz bagi bie mkan tadi . heee :D
bby igat au , ILUSFDM uke ! heee :D

26 December 2010

kepenatan melampau .

semalam aku berjalan sakan kowt . hahahaha ! 1st , pagi tuu aku der job ckit nan production for photograph wedding bridal . daa laa aku bangon lambat ,kol bpew aku bgon eyh ? ops ! kol 9.30a.m bwu bangon . boz soh twon kol 8 but aku twon dkat2 kol 10a.m . hahah ! penat aku dengar boz aku bambu aku. tapi taperh , ader alasan yang kukuh . coz ary ujan . hahha ! :P nga wat keje mlayan krenah krenah dowang  itu ini , sedar2 aku daa abez keje . daa kol 5p.m . aku igat leyh laa alek twoz , tapi taa coz boz aku g amek gurlz dyer n then bwu alek . huhuh . after campai uma , aku igat aku leyh ar rest , ( naa tidow ! mate aku barai giler ! ) . mane taa nyer , kelmarin gkuar g beli brang campai kol 7a.m bawu alek pastu kol 9.30 tuu g keje . penat laa shial ! grrr~! alek2 uma mak aku ajak lak g karoke mlam tuu kol  8 . perhhh ! mmg tate mase naa tidow arh aku . ngee~ after g melalak sume lam kol 11 kitowang alek , then dtang lak mmber aku sowang nie ajak masok town . ( function kate nyer ) hehehe :P aku pon perh agyh , alang2 naa penat an bdan , aku folow arh dowang . folow nyer folow , function nyer function , tgok jam kol 5a.m . ape lagi , aku pon ajak arh dowang alek . alek campai uma kat2 kol 6a.m . ( daa azan subuh bawu samapai uma ) hehehe :P . sampai uma , aku pon perh agyh , amek towel , then g shower . lega bdan aku , bdan daa lega ,sume , aku pon tidow arh ! per lagi . hahahha ! kesedapan aku tidow coz daa 2 ary taa tdow , mmg bez . sampai ker petang bawu aku bgon . tuu pon mak aku yang kejot an . hehehe . ( texn mom ! sayang mak ! ) :D . after bangong jerk , aku tgok fon aku ,  bese lah , bngon2 kene cari fon kowt2 ner nak tau ader miskol or mesej . heeee :) tapi mmg btol pon , ader 4 mesej dari boz aku , 2 mesej dari mmber aku . miskol ? tayaa cakap . boz aku nyer jerk ader 16 , mmber aku nyer 3 . huhuhu . aku pon kol boz aku tanye dyer napew , tup2 aku lupe , ary nie ader job . photo shoot megazine production . adesss ! memekak boz aku . nasib bek ader g sowang mmber aku yang g shoot an tok megazine tuu . lau tatae , mampoz aku kene bambu agyh . ngeeee~

p/s : nie laa pdah nyer lau asyhik pikir naa enjoy jerk . campai keje pon lupe . heee :)

19 December 2010

sape aku di hatimu ?

Semalaman rindu ku di halaman menanti cinta mekar berbunga , ingin aku bertanye kepadamu . siapa ku di hati mu ? intan atau pun kaca ? semalaman langit tiada berbintang ,asmara ini terpaksa ku pendam dan mengumpulnya kembali untuk mu ku kasihi . lumrahnya orang yang bercinta adalah hidupnya akan bahagia tetapi mengapakah kita asyik dengan memendam rasa ? siapakah aku di hati mu ? hingga tidurku pun tak lena sebab ternanti nanti jawapan darimu , tertanya tanya masa depan . lautan bara bukan ukuran , onak duri hanya khayalan sayang . sampai hati engkau usirkan cintaku . mestikah cinta dan hukuman ini kepadaku ?
 feel sad :'(

lappy oh lappy

fuck ! lappy aku rosak plak ! sial lah ! pas satu satu . moto rosak , encet rosak , ckunk lappy aku plak jahanam ? sial arhhh ! ader jerk mende naa osak . fedup sial cam nie ! padahal bawu jerk aku btol an , ckunk jahanam alek ? memang sial ! jangan sampai ilang saba aku , aku buang jerk menatang nie at lombong depan uma ku kunk . aku daa penat sabo nan menatang sial nie . lappy aku nie nan moto aku samew jerk ! sebulan 2 kali aku betol an . boleyh tahan gak kowang nie an ! hotak ko ! banyak dwet aku asyhik kowang jek aku naa btol an ! kowang wat aku giler tau taa ! babi ! taa pasal2 pinjam lappy maksu aku . ngeeee~!
Fuck off ~!



when 1st .


1st dates are awkward,
1st kisses are heavenly,
1st loves are irreplaceable,
1st heartbreaks are unforgettable !

finally , i got your answer .

finally , i got this the answer from u .
she said this :
wa xsangka iz suke wa........mira bg taw iz ke?
wa xnak bg taw iz coz wa xnak iz hoping on me....
wa taw wa xkan leh tinggal kan die u sesape.....mg sush sgt....wa lonely tp wa saba.....wa mmg mengharap xkan ade sesape yg mengharapkan wa...sbb wa taw wa xleh tggl kan die...ati die,,idup die da serahkan kat wa.....wa xleh patahkan hati die...wa xnk die nangis...
and wa taw.....die akan jd boy yg paling sedih law wa tinggalkan die...
die rancang everything bout life die...and wa termasok dalam plan die...iz nak wa hancurkan impian die?die byk sgt berkorban u wa.....die tggu wa da 2taon.....wa kurang kasih syg dari,,wa ngaku die slalu abaikan die,,sbb tu wa terbabas sygkan farid dulu....and wa sedar farid juz nak ambil kesempatan kat wa...die pakse wa kizz die...die tarik wa....wa da takot ngn die....wa hampir tgglkan bf wa u farid,,and wa xnk wat kesilapan yg same sbb salah pilih,,wa sepatutnye bersyukur pe yg wa da ade....tibe2 iz came back in ma memory.....and ntah mcm mane wa terlepas ckp kat mira yg wa syg iz,,,tp wa xnak die bgtaw kat iz,,sbb wa taw sume tu akan menambahkan masalah....jgn terlalu mencintai...tu nasihat wa...wa xnk iz sedey...........sbb wa akan menambahkan ur tears....believe i did luv u i did care on u but i cant more than that.....wa xpenah tpu iz pasal single.......
wa rase cam single...sbb bf wa xtreat wa cam iz treat wa...die mengaku single kat fb....wa terkejot....wa rase cam ade sum thing yg die sorok kan...wa harap die hargai wa...sbb wa xpenah main2 dgn relationship..wa ckp kat wall...wa single ke,,tolong jawab..and i never mention dat im really single...im feel like single,,right now n ever...iz wa harap sgt iz xde hati ngn wa...plz jgn suke wa...plz...
tenx dear coz make me now the thruth story of on we relation . tnx a lot . i'm hurt now . 

18 December 2010

never . supposed . stop it !

Never Say I love you if you don't really care,
Never talk about feeling if they aren't really there.
Never hold my hand if you're going to break my heart.
Never say you're to, if you never plan to start.
Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie.
Never say hello, if you really mean goodbye.
If you really mean forever, then say you will try.
Never say forever ' cause forever makes me cry.

I'm not supposed to love you,
I'm not supposed to care,
I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there,
I'm not supposed to wonder where you are and what to do,
I'm sorry I can't help myself,
I'm in love with you.


You're not worth the tears,
you're not worth the heartache.
I don't know why I give you the time.
You're not worth the pain,
you're not worth the emptiness.
I don't know why I wish you were mine.
I understand that with loves comes pain,
but why did i have to love so much?


p/s : The worst feeling in the world is giving all the love you have and knowing it will never be returned . 





17 December 2010

salah ke diri aku ?


pesal ? salah kerh aku naa mek pot sal ko ? salah ker aku naa sayang ko ? salah ker sume tuu ? salah ker aku naa ko jadi sebahagian dari idpop aku ? salah ker aku menceintai ko ? salah ker sume tuu ? aku tau aku taa mungkin sebagoz yang len tapi hine sangat kerh aku ? ko penah tau aty aku ? mybe ko kenal aku but ko taa kenal isi aty aku . plez ! stop it ! aku penat nan sume nie .  ko cakap ko single but not ! ko der yang punyer . ko tipu aku . knapew ? ko tau taa aty aku selalu pikir sal ko ? rindu an ko ? naa ko jd sebahagia dari idop aku saat susah n senang ? ko penah tau sume tuu ? aku ader mintak couple nan ko an but ko taa time . uke fine . aku accpetd decision dari ko . mybe time tuu ko lom sedia tok time aku lam idop ko . daa  2 year aku tggu ko . sampai bile ko naa sekse aku ? ary2 aku nangis sal ko . ko penah pikir ? ko tau taa aper yang aku ase skunk ? 1 more tink , aku nan nora tuu juz fwenz uke ! she my bestties ! fwenz ak dari naku skola . plez arh pham . aku taa mintak simpaty dari ko but aku hope ko pham per perasaan aku . cube ko duduk at position aku ckunk , per yang ko ase ? like owl miz the moon light . plez ! 
jangan uat seseorang tuu jato cinte if ko sekadar bersuke ria dengan nyer .
shit ! start too cry againz ! damn it !
 
 
 
 

16 December 2010

loved

  .
 I never loved you more cause
I never loved you less ,
I dont love you now coz
I will love you always ,
I dont just love you coz
I love you more than
I love you can say . . .



 .

11 December 2010

can i get u back ?

Without you there is no love .
Without you there is no me .
Without you there is nothing .
So I'm asking , baby , please don't leave .




^ for the someone ^

Everytime I think of you , I'm sad .
Everytime I hear you're name , I'm mad !
But everytime I think of how you made me feel , I'm glad .
Your love as far as I can see is all I'm ever gonna need .
Some say it is a sin to love ,
I never did ask why ? but if I sin in loving you , I'll sin until I die !
After a year of having to live without you ,
i've realized I lost me when I lost you , I miss you !
If I knew missing you was going to be a part of my life ,
I never would have let you in .
Most people love you for who you pretend to be . . .
to keep their love , you keep pretending performing .
You get to love your pretense . . .
it's true , we're locked in an image , an act and the sad thing is , people get so used to their image , they grow attached to their masks .
They love their chains .
They forget all about who they really are .
And , if you try to remind them , they hate you for it .
They feel like you're trying to steal their most precious possession .
So let me get this straight , you were leading me on , using me ,  keeping me waiting for something that wasn’t there , letting me get my hopes up for you , acting like you cared , and allowing me to start liking you more and more everyday because you didn’t want to hurt me ?
No matter how much it'll hurt me to see you , my most loved lost one , all that I wish is look into your eyes once again .
Losing you is like losing my heart .
It's a horrible thing to see your lost love walk past you with another boy , and it's the worst thing to know that you made a mistake in letting him go .
I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that I hated you .
That sooner or later I would come to believe it but I now realize that by lying .

it makes me want you even more . . .

lost u .

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new .
What is broken is broken and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived .
Love is strong yet delicate .
It can be broken .
To truly love is to understand this .
To be in love is to respect this .
To love somebody who doesn't love you ,
Is like going to a temple and worshipping the behind of a wooden statue . . .
Of a hungry devil .
When we are in love we often  doubt that which we most believe .
The course of true love never did run smooth .
To love and win is the best thing ,
To love and lose , the next best .
Love without reason lasts the longest .
Just because i smile on the outside doesnt mean that i am on the inside .
Harsh words break no bones but they do break hearts .
What is the point of life if you are not spending it with someone you love ?
Trouble is a part of your life , and if you don't share it , you don't give the person who loves you enough chance to love you enough .
Life is Love .
If you miss love , you miss life .
A life without love is no life at all .
She can make you happy but you don't need her to be happy .
Deep in my heart ,  I'm suffering ,  knowing that I've lost you !
On the outside , I'm living  pretending that I've forgotten you dear !
I just want one day to go by where I'm not pretending I'm happy ! !

pegi ko !

kenapew ek ? bile kite daa syang kat seseorang tuu an , mesti kite yang terluke alek ? why haa ? perlu kerh kite yang luke ? adesss ! taa paham arh . sumpah ! memang aku taa paham . dulu , aku der syang sorang dak nie , dyer pon daa bla , daa apat penganti , ckunk nie ko plak naa blah ? ermmm . nasib badan . g pon  aku sedar sapew aku . aku taa perfect like dowang sume . yaa ! i knew it ! taperh laaa . ko naa g , ko g jer laa . ko tggal an aku sowang2 k . taperh . i'm uke . abez2 sehari due jerk aku rindu an ko . pastu , mybe ilang arh . tapi satu jerk aku naa pesan . ko naa g , ko g teroz k ! jgan balek g at aku . jangan cari aku lagi ! aku taa suke ! yelaa , taa kan ko daa ludah , ko naa jilat balek an ? taa kan an ? beter , blah ! jangan datang lagi uke !

i'm hurt

sure aku cakap aty aku sakit . sakit sangat2 . kenapew ? kenapew sume perlu jadi lam relation kiter ? why dear ? why u hurt me ? tell me ! plez ! dont make me being to be crazy againz . i need u ! plez arh . jangan ko sekse aku lagi . aku daa taa tahan lagi naa teroz cam nie . jiwa aku daa cukop merana selame nie . daa cukop sengsara nan aper yang daa jadi selame nie . sampai bile ko naa teroz wat aku cam nie ? ko uat aku like patong taa bernyawe ? sampai bile ? sampai aku daa mampoz baru ko naa stop an sume nieh ? sampai camtu sekali kerh ? itu kerh yang ko naa ? if tuu yang ko naa , juz straight to me n speak ! no need to be quietly . plez arh ! i'm begging to u , i want u . i miz u , i miz your laugh , miz your voice , miz your smile , miz your crazy moment . evryting bout u . dear , plez stop it this sketsa . plezzzzzzzz !

sucsess !

akhir nye siap gak aku nyer gadget2 at blog kesayangan aku nie . huhuhu . penat seyh . bukan penat aper , penat menggodam menatang nie . da laa nan tenet lembab cam siput ! geram aku . grrrr~ tapi paper pon , siap gak aku nyer blog nie . alaa . bukan wat per pon , juz edit ckit jerk . tukar layout baru , tambah gadget2 yang penting n dellect yang taa penting .( wat semak blog aku jerk . ) heee :D
skunk , time to relax . huhuhu :D

03 December 2010

nyaris !

perh ! nyaris taa nyaris tadi . JARI aku hampir putoz gare2 betol an TENGGILING
( moto ) member aku sowang nie . naa sangat masok barang2 racing , haa ! aku yang jadi mangse ! grrr~ ( moto tuu daa elok2 , nak digodam sanew cnie , dari standet , naa jadi racing plak . adesss ! naa racing cgt , g masok trek at sepang tuu haa ! ) ngeee~ mmg dlam siot luke dyer . darah taa benti2 asyik naa kuar jerk . huhuhu . dari start kene lam kol 9p.m td , campai ckunk . ckunk pon daa kat kol 1.30a.m daa . huhuhu . mak aku daa nek risau , mane taa nyer , darah langsong taa benti2 dari tadi . memeng pedih uh . mak aku soh g klinik . perhhh ! sumpah aku cakap , aku taa kan g ! sakit uh . then kompom2 kene jait nyer . taa bnyak pon if kene jait , lam 4 jait jerk . perh ! sakit siot . taa naa aku . biar jerk laa . t sok luse uke laa jari aku nie . juz luke jerk but luke yang dalam . huhuh .
pas daa ciap sume tuu , g warong lepak minum jap . huhuh . sakit siot tangan nie . tenxz CACA , snap picx aku . heee :D

p/s : COKI ! nie sume sal TENGGILING ko tuu . if taa , tate arh jari aku campai jadi cam nie . grrrr~ majok nan ko sehari . hahahah ! taperh2 , aku oke jerk meh . heee :D

02 December 2010

fever + flu ! ;(

ary nie sengal n berjalan cam ary2 bese . keje , keje , keje . huhuhu . but ary niee taa cam selalu , selalu bnyak surat naa kene anta but ary nie juz 27piece jerk . maklum lah anie an DESPATCH a.k.a PIUNMAN . hehehe :P . cam bese arh , if daa abez keje n daa tate surat aku pon gerak g pot aku lpak nan mmber aku SHARIS a.k.a CACA at S.ALAM SEK.7 . heeee :D
dari P.J kerh tmpat dyer tuu lam 15 minit jerk . taa jaoh pon . after that aku pon jupe dyer n lpak2 nan dyer at tmpat keje dyer uh , n td aku teringat n terpikir somting . terpikir bout my sis WAWA a.ka NURUL AINA ROSLAN yang ckunk stay at sek.25 s.alam . daa 2 taon taa jupe . sebelom nie dyer stay at B.ANTARABANGSA after that pidah s.alam alek . huhuh . mule2 tanye at mmber aku tuu naa jupe kerh taa adeq kitowang yang sowang nie but mmber aku nie cam naa taa naa jerk . ermmmm . berat aty dyer kowt naa jupe . or mybe segan . heee :D . ngan taa bnyak cakap nyer , aku pon teroz ajak n pakse gak dyer g jupe adeq kitowang tuu . daa jupe , lpak n sembang2 sume , jam menunjuk an kol 3.45 , n then mmber aku ckap naa alek coz ader hal agyh . huhuhuh . aku pon follow arh ea . after that kuar jerk dari s.alam naa alek ker rawang , perh !! taa au aku naa ckap cam nerh , HUJAN selebat lebat nyer sampai kitowang taa nampak jalan uh . juz berpandu an LINE yang kaler PUTIH tuu jerk . huhu . n then jupe 1 flyover , n dudok at ctu berteduh kejap . ( kejap aper ! kat sejam dok at ctu tggu ujan benti ! grrr~ ) . ( ko arh nie ca ! aku daa ckap , ptang ujan . ko degil . ko naa gak g jupe adeq kite tuu , tgok ! kan daa basah lebcun . ) heheheh . :P . ( gurau2 ca , tamo amek aty . ) heee :D . tga ddok at ctu , mmber aku nie , mawa aku . huhuh . coz sal aku laa kitowang alek kene ujan . if tadi twoz alek taa yaa jupe adeq kitowang tuu , tate kene dok at bwh flyover nie tggu ujan benti . ( caca ! ilex arh . alaaaa . bkan slalu pon jupe adeq kite uh . heee :D ) . tggu punye tggu , ujan taa gak benti2 , then kitowang daa bengang , kitowang redah jerk . ( kuyup pon kuyup arh , yang penting sampai uma ) . redah campai uma . huhuh . alek uma , masing2 daa taa larat . masing2 daa bebalot nan blanket . heeee :D . DEMAM sudaa . uhux3 :( .
 paper pon , tenx tuu lil sis WAWA coz lpak nan abg2 mu ini yang separoh giler . ( caca jerk giler , but iz taa . buwek ! :p ) . jgan mara ca . juz kidding meh . heee :D